It seems to be working! Sometimes....

[sandycay]

SC,

I wanted to tell you that when I read your email to your husband a few days ago how much I felt for you because it so beautifully stated everything that I have been feeling in my heart and mind.

And now to read that your challenges continue to grow, I wish that I could offer you some advice, but I am with you in this one. All that I can offer is that it seems to help me to step back and just let things play themselves out with the confidence that I will KNOW when I have to do something.

Perhaps it is a bit psychotic, but it is almost like I am watching things play out like a story in a book or a movie. I'm just not that invested in my H's character right now. And to imagine that if I were a character in my movie, how would I want her to handle things. My friend is studying the Kabbalah right now and this idea of your life as a story is something she is learning.

You have my most positive thoughts.

Take care you.

Thanks for Posting. You know if I step back and look at it. As my friend Silent Cheerleader told me over and over...."of course he is still going to think he's in love with her, but what matters is that he still here and is trying to do his best"

He is treating me well and makes sure to be kind and loving. It's just hard emotionally on me. But I can choose to get off any time. I put my expectations on those email and frankly, that's not fair and it's a lot of pressure for him. He can lie to me about the answer and make me feel better or he can protect me and say nothing.

Story book huh.... The title of mine would be:

nightmare on 93rd street