\My wife is going to leave me in 5 days--help!

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Thanks Melissa,
I did talk to the counselor today and she is pro marraige. She asked about the kids and other things and was overall very helpful but promised nothing. I'm not going to ask her about spending anymore time together. I think in a few more days, I will be over my jet lag and ready to take on the house full throttle, we'll see.
Ok, we went out to dinner tonight as a family. She was very talkative and joking around a lot. I tried to smile as much as I could and join in the fun but is was difficult. She told my kids at one point that if they had kids they were NOT TO CALL HER GRANDMA!--sign of a MLC? As hard as I tried to appear cheerful though, this woman has known me for 15+ years and she knew I was not having a good time. She knows I miss her. She dropped us off and came into get some clothes. I wanted to ask her to stay sooo bad but did not. I went into the living room and sat down while she rummaged through piles of clothes to take. She made a big show out of taking a laundry basket and looked at me and said i'm just going to use this I'll bring it back tomorrow. When she was getting ready to leave she asked me for a hug. She kissed me for a really long time too. Felt good--but felt like she was just trying to make me feel better--I may be really tired though and reading in to it too much. Oh yeah, I forgot, I set up marraige counseling for tomorrow and Friday. I gave her a paper with the address, directions and times for the sessions when I got into the car. She says whats this? I said that's the MC we talked about. She said I don't want anyone talking down to me telling me I'm shitty, etc, etc. I told her I already spoke with the counselor on the phone and she said she was very thick skinned and if we didn't like her, she would refer us to another counselor.

Right before she left as she was holding me she said, I'll see you tomorrow, ok? After my wife left my SS came to talk to me in the computer room and see if I was ok. I said yeah, I guess--not exactly the night I wanted for your last night though. He said I don't know why she is doing this and I'm sorry you're in so much pain. He told me I've been a good father and that he loved me. Told me he'd keep in touch too. I said ok, sounds good. He told me that he doesn't recognize her anymore. I just listened until he started to get ugly a little and then I told him to stop and remember that she is his mother and she has always stuck up for you and loves you very much, dont you forget it.

We have our first session tomorrow. Please pray for me, my wife and our marraige. Thank you guys for everything. Getting this stuff out and seeing the different opinions and perspecitives is really helping me. I would be sitting her staring at the wall if it wasn't for this site. I can't even watch TV--not even fun anymore. Exercise is really the only thing that makes me feel somewhat detached from feeling bad. Well, I'm gonna try to get some sleep. Sleep well everyone.