Yes, once. I guess I have to do it over and over again to gain more confidence.
I stopped calling her, texting and emailing, but as I said she's been doing it now. I'm not saying that she's been harrasing me; it's rather like one "control" phone call or other contact once a day (just to check in if I'm not mad and still willing to wait for her, I guess).
Called me on Saturday night asking what was I doing and why I wasn't at home when she first called. Told her I went for a dinner with few friends-that didn't go well with her ego: a dinner? with whom? where? how? why? I guess she would prefer I'd rather stay at home and be miserable while she's debating on our marriage and discussing it with OM. I also suscpect that she thinks I may be seeing someone else (what an absurd!) but few times she asked me those weird questions... Is she jealous all of the sudden?
I do answer to her TMs, but being very briefly. Probably shouldn't have done it either...
I know one thing: she is not a manipulative or evil person. She's not heartless. She's just totally lost, confused and desperately trying to keep the balance while she's joggling with my life and our marriage in one hand and relationship with OM on another. My job is to keep her off that balance and don't let her settle down before she makes the decision.
I just pray it will be the right one. Last week's failed attempt was encouraging.
By the way; how should I respond to it? Pretend that nothing happened? Be mad? Or maybe thank her for trying?
