Thanks for your comments. From what I hear and read, the mediation is the way to go and two L's fighting it over sounds unproductive and expensive. Question, if you know, is would her L be able to be an independent reviewer of an mediated agreement, or would he work on in her interest?
I've broached to Separation topic with her before, but I think she sees no point in it and thinks it would cause confusion for the kids. That's what's so wierd, she knows a divorced girlfriend that has shared her (somewhat) unhappy reality of lonliness with her, and she knows what she's getting into, but she still wants it.
Joint custody is what I'm going for.
As far as taking care of myself, I continue to narrow in on that and have made good progress. Like so many others, I dropped the weight (30 lbs - from 200 to 170 and I'm 6'1"). And with working out and lifting a bit, I've truly transformed my body. I know that can sound shallow, but, to me, it's been an amazing thing on how I can change something so dramatically - during a time of mental pain. I'm also starting to treat my body like a temple - watching what I eat and not wanting the junk as much. This year, I want to see how strong my mind can become.
