WAW - yet another one

[confusedinpa]

Stuck808

Thanks for the support

It's really hard to keep it together and focused when it's falling on what seems to be a closed heart. The irony is this is how she must have felt over the past years. She had said it had gotten much worse after the birth of our second son (he turns 3 at the end of March). I had just started a job that was 2 hours away (each way) so I would leave at 4:00 AM and not be back until after 8:00 PM. That didn't leave much time for me with the kids, let alone her and I.

I switched jobs after 6 months, but I think the true damage was done. My new job required me to travel 1 week every 2-3 months. After 3 months, found out our division was going to be divested so that kept me busy for 12 months (between traveling as part of my regular job, which increased to 1 week every 2 months and all the management/investment banker meetings/dinners). After the sale of the company, the past year I was so focused on setting up the new company, as well as integrating our newer acquisition, I lost track of my wife. That's the truly sad part of it. She tried so hard - much like I am now. That's why I can so empathize with the pain. I want to give up after 4 weeks, she tried for so many years. No wonder she is hardened. Perhaps I should talk about that in counseling session as well - it's only an hour, so I know I can't fit everything in (her issues with her dad and mom's divorce, her anger, etc), although its all related.

So many people are telling me to just give up (well meaning friends, they don't want to see me continue to hurt I guess).

I just don't know how to get through to her.

I know all I can do is keep on my 180. She has noticed. Now I just need her to believe and care. That's the tough part.

Thanks for everyone's encouragement. It means everything to me know as it seems like that's all I've got.