No more thinking, no more analyzing, no more heartache. This is my life and I refuse to allow my happiness depend on someone else. There is no point worrying about this for another second. I am taking control of this now. I am the one that has the power to end my pain, no one else. My thoughts and actions control my feelings. I can control both, and I will. There will no more planning, no more searching for a reaction and no more submissiveness. I deserve better from myself. If I find myself planning something to get attention, I will stop. If I find myself reminiscing about better times, I will stop. If I find myself think about what anyone else is doing apart from myself, I will stop. Every day that I spend dwelling on that which I can’t control is another day wasted. Every day that I spend dwelling on that which I can’t control is another day that I have delayed myself from feeling better. I don’t need to worry about this situation, it is over. I accept that. This situation is now irresolvable from my end. I have done all that I can. I will no longer put myself in a position to be disrespected and I will instead start respecting myself. I am a prize, I am a catch. I will not lower myself to a level that I have no business being on. I am letting it go. If it comes back, the decision then becomes mine. I will not wait for it to come back however, my decision has already been made – I am moving on. If it doesn’t come back, I have my self respect – the knowledge that I have walked away from a situation with my dignity intact. I will not compromise my dignity again. I am walking away knowing that I have avoided making someone who has no right feeling above me, feel just that. I am walking away from this and I will have no regrets. Mine is not a position to regret because I have given it my all. My mind is telling me that what I’m putting myself through is wrong, that I am wrong to torture myself over this. I am now listening. I will not re-enter the equation. I will not put myself in harms way again. I will not leave myself open for rejection. I will now start respecting myself enough to end my pain. I am the only one that can do so. And today is that day. I’m done.
Me:38 W:40 Bomb/EA 03/08 Recon twice 1/09 W files for D Story