Stolen from someone else:

This ends now.


No more thinking, no more analyzing, no more heartache.
This is my life and I refuse to allow my happiness depend on someone else.
There is no point worrying about this for another second.
I am taking control of this now.
I am the one that has the power to end my pain, no one else.
My thoughts and actions control my feelings.
I can control both, and I will.
There will no more planning, no more searching for a reaction and no more submissiveness.
I deserve better from myself.
If I find myself planning something to get attention, I will stop.
If I find myself reminiscing about better times, I will stop.
If I find myself think about what anyone else is doing apart from myself, I will stop.
Every day that I spend dwelling on that which I can’t control is another day wasted.
Every day that I spend dwelling on that which I can’t control is another day that I have delayed myself from feeling better.
I don’t need to worry about this situation, it is over. I accept that.
This situation is now irresolvable from my end.
I have done all that I can.
I will no longer put myself in a position to be disrespected and I will instead start respecting myself.
I am a prize, I am a catch.
I will not lower myself to a level that I have no business being on.
I am letting it go.
If it comes back, the decision then becomes mine.
I will not wait for it to come back however, my decision has already been made – I am moving on.
If it doesn’t come back, I have my self respect – the knowledge that I have walked away from a situation with my dignity intact.
I will not compromise my dignity again.
I am walking away knowing that I have avoided making someone who has no right feeling above me, feel just that.
I am walking away from this and I will have no regrets.
Mine is not a position to regret because I have given it my all.
My mind is telling me that what I’m putting myself through is wrong, that I am wrong to torture myself over this.
I am now listening.
I will not re-enter the equation.
I will not put myself in harms way again.
I will not leave myself open for rejection.
I will now start respecting myself enough to end my pain.
I am the only one that can do so.
And today is that day.
I’m done.


Me:38
W:40
Bomb/EA 03/08
Recon twice
1/09 W files for D
Story