I don't feel as if I am starting over from the very beginning, just starting over with dealing with things. I am starting over with a clear mind. No meds to fog it up. I am thinking clearly and want to do this the right way.
After talking with some very close friends the last week or so I have realized I am not ready to give up on my marriage even though the divorce will be final. I think I filed because it was something my stbx wanted and being me, I did it to please him.
Now I want to learn to please me. I want to learn to live my life for me and no one else. I just need help with learning how to do it. Maybe some books people have read to help them may help me.
I can't move forward with my life until I learn to deal with the past. Dealing with the past means letting go of the pain. Trusting again.
