\My wife is going to leave me in 5 days--help!

[AFWAW]

Melissa,
You are right of course. I have been obsessive about things for years and it is hard to not be all of the sudden. I went for run this morning and thought about if I am really happy just being me. I realized I haven't been happy or loving myself for years. I have always seem to put things like school, work, or order and discipline before what was most important--my wife, my kids, myself. I honestly can't think of the last time I liked being me. Maybe its time to start. I'm trying to stay positive here. I have always been impatient about everything and never really just slowed down and relaxed unless I was drinking--that was not good as I was doing it to relax instead of doing it while relaxing.

I just miss my wife and wish there was some way I could soften her heart a little. I hear you loud and clear though, I will work on becoming ok with myself for today.

Thank you so much for your kind words. Have a good day.

John