\My wife is going to leave me in 5 days--help!

[AFWAW]

Well, I finally almost got a full nights sleep. It is just so hard to understand how someone can just throw away 15 years and not want to try to save it--just run away from it. I was thinking yesterday about all the things she's said since I've been home: she has friends, she looks and feels good, has tried new things--drinking(admits to being drunk a few times--on TDYs--lifting weights. She mentioned that she think she started thinking about doing this when I was upset about her and the kids going on a cruise while I was gone--I told her I didn't mean to make her feel that way. She said it's almost like I didn't want her to be happy--I didn't think I was doing that but she always seemed happy--I'm not a mind reader. When she told me that I went back and looked at cruise pictures that had been taken and every pic she was in looked like she was contemplating something and she looked sad.

Talked w/ my daughter last night and she seems uncomfortable talking about it. I asked her if she wanted us to get back together--she said she didn't know. She said you'll get used to it--WTF is going on? I let it go but was very stunned when she said that.

The wife did not call or email yesterday. She is supposedly coming to stay here today and tomorrow to spend some time with my SS before he leaves. I am aching to see her and talk to her. I miss her so bad. If she comes tonight, I will do my best to seem as if I have moved on and happy but it will be difficult. I will also not follow her around, ask her questions unless she starts r talk first. Any other ideas on how I can DB when she comes over? I feel that she is going to purposely limit our time together so she will not have a problem following through on her decision. Gonna go pray again.