I couldn't help myself. I asked him to try and imagine how I feel. Try to imagine what it feels like to be tossed aside like a piece of trash. How one week he is so loving and affectionate and the next week he doesn't want to be married. How does that happen? And it wasn't just me he tossed aside. He knows it too.

I asked him if he felt he was getting what he wanted. If he felt he was going to be happier once all this was over. He couldn't answer. He could only say that he didn't want to stay unhappy. But when asked why he was or is unhappy he has no answers. He just is.

I told him that all my tears are for the kids, and just the idea of not being able to keep them and the house was very upsetting. He doesn't say a thing. He used to be so great when I was upset. He would be so comforting, and sweet. I miss that.

I also told him that I know that we are over, and I don't want him to think that he can't talk to me about other stuff without worrying that it would give me hope. I told him that I worry about him and that I can see he really needs a friend to talk to, and I was sorry that I wasn't there for him before. I just wanted to open that door for him, even though he couldn't talk to me before, maybe he could now. IDK, I'm sure I'm just setting myself up for more disappointment.

I feel so sad, and hopeless for us. I just don't see any chance whatsoever of anything happening for us. It really seems over.


Me36
H35
T18/M12
S10/D8
Speech 11/08
Sep:11/08
Poss EA 6/08
H filed D Papers 2/13/09
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