Just before dinner, she started to complain about her stomach again - I thought here we go. This time though, she thinks it's heartburn from lunch.

What was really odd was before dinner, I put on the radio to play her Ipod. She put on the playlist that she made for me because she added a song last week as a surprise for me (it was the theme song from the Apprentice that she knew I liked). Then she put on love songs. I thought this was a good sign. After a few songs, I asked her to dance. She put her arms around me like she would when we would dance. I started to move, but she then just said I'm not dancing. Of course the kids then interupted before I could say anything else. I was pissed - at one point I thought she was playing around just to mess with me.

I calmed down and at least stayed positive during dinner - upbeat and relaxed.

We wound up watching Lost after the boys went to bed. I started sitting on the other couch but wound up sitting next to her as the kids kept getting up so we didn't want the TV on too loud (her couch was closer). I didn't try to talk or touch her. She did start flipping through the Entertainment book I got for us to look for date nite ideas. When she was done, I asked her if anything looked interesting. Nothing jumped out at her.

After we went to bed and chatted for a little while, she said her heartburn was too much so she went to sleep on the recliners so she would be a little more upright.

I'm very confused and frustrated

I'm still trying to figure out what to say/cover in the counseling session tomorrow. Any thoughts?


Me 41
WAW 36
S 3&7
M 10 yrs
W files D 1/9/09
W moves out 4/18
Lost job 6/15
New job 7/27
Disc PA 8/10 (started Nov 2008!)
Confronted 8/11
Admits PA & appologies for hurt 9/11
Lost Job 11/13