My first step out of Newcomers

[Can it work]

I agree completely PM. We always got on so well. Things like this just never happened in their day. She was absolutely devastated when my W left me and definitely sympathises with me in the sitch. She also loves the dog to bits so she still visits me quite often.

I'm a bit down again since W was past to collect Wee Man. I don't think that aspect of it is ever going to get easier. Every time she takes hi away from me it rips my heart out anew. I mentioned to her tonight that I wanted to see him more often even if it's just for a short visit. She didn't sound too keen. She's just going to have to get used to the idea though. He's my son and I refuse to spend so much time away from him. She made no effort to visit him over the weekend even though I'd told her she'd be more than welcome. That's her problem. I'm not going to do the same. She also asked me to take Wee Man on Wednesday and Thursday night instead of Tuesday Wednesday because she's got a night out on Thursday. I don't mind being felxible but I'm still going to go and visit him on Monday and Tuesday this week. No way am I going without for 3 nights.

W was in a hurry to get him away because she's been invited to a friend of her family's house for a meal and they all wanted to see Wee Man. A couple of months ago we would both have been invited. I'm really going to miss things like that. Her family's friends always had such a good social life and we were always included. We were all supposed to be going on holiday to Bulgaria in the summer but obviously that's not going to be happening any more. That is one of the problems I'm having to deal with. A huge part of my social life was through my W's family. It's effectively been ripped away from me along with my W and S. I think I'd deal with this a lot better if it had only been my W.

Anyway, I'm going to try and do something to take my mind off everything tonight. Not sure what yet but I'm sure I'll think of something. I was doing a lot better today but without my S I'm feeling the loneliness setting in again. Most of my friends live in the country and the snow is cutting off that possibility for company.

I apologise if I'm being excessively downhearted but this feels like my only release these days and it feels better to be get it all out.

My W has definitely stopped wearing her rings. I'd like to ask what reason a woman would have for doing that? Is she advertising herself as available? I'm toying with the idea now of taking mine off. I don't want her to think I'm still pining for her. I've accepted the fact now that this is going to take a long long time.