The amazing thing about all this is that I am not avoiding him to be hurtful. I am avoiding him so I can be healthy and happy.
When this is my goal, I feel little to no guilt.
Because my happiness is worth it.
If I am happy, my children are happy.
Once upon a time, that was important to ex.
I am also cooking a lot more lately.
When ex first left, I could not cook or bake.
I know this sounds weird, but it reminded me of ex because he just loved my cooking.
Now I discarded all my old recipes and I am trying new ones.
My kids are in heaven.
New memories, new reminders.
Ok. now I have a confession.
No 2 x 4, ok.?
I have a copy of all of ex's credit card statements from the divorce.
I was able to call the customer service number of these credit cards and find out his balance, line of credit, and payment information.
It is not pretty.
0 credit
Up to his limit
Way, way, way, behind on payments.
Would I want to live that way?
Do you?
OW also has no credit. Ex told me that.
They are a mess.
I have another confession.
My son came up with this idea and I pretended that I did not hear it. (but I really did).
He bought a package of "itching powder" from the internet. It was very cheap.
He put it all (and I mean all) of it in OW's lingerie drawer.
She will be spending the night there tonight.
OMG
OMG
Me: 46 H:44 Together: 25 years Married: 20 years Separated: 11-30-06 Divorced 12-21-07 OW: EA began 2005 PA began end of 2006 3 children,20, 16, 6 ex asked for forgiveness 01/16/11
