Don't sell the dreams you should be keeping......

[Beth 83]

Lisa--
If H were to ask, we were the best of friends. I've been able to break down my feelings:

Feelings about H & Horse: I hate her. I can't help it and know I should hate him, but I hate her. The idea of him being with her makes me sick. Why? Probably because it reminds me of our break up. Knowing that she was the OW to an overweight, wealthy man in his late '50s prior to H, and some other things I've heard about her personality, just also makes me hate her.

Feelings about H and any other woman: H has been dating and we talk about it. I am genuinely happy for him to be meeting new girls. When he tells me about it, I feel happy for him. Its strange, but true.

Feelings about H and Me: I love him still. I have snooped a little and that doesn't help me, it makes it worse b/c I know he isn't telling me the truth about things (his feelings about OW). I can't imagine we will ever work it out and I don't even think I want to.

Enjoy your day. It is supposed to be gorgeous here today, so I'm looking forward to getting out and about!