I can't mentally share with anyone else the way we shared. I chose her, and I was rejected by her. And I'm haunted by images of how much fun her life must be while I'm still picking up the pieces.
You will never share what you had with xW, because you share children, the love of your lives. But you will be able to share something else, something new, something deep, with someone else when you are ready.
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this probably sounds pathetic but I'm just venting on a rainy cold dark night when I have to be alone.
Not pathetic at all. Sometimes, I find myself the loneliest on a crowded room surrounded by people that love me. We are all working through this. Its wonderful that you acknowledge your feelings instead of burying them. I guarantee your xW is burying things deep.
