Morning everyone! I had a fantastic night out..wore high heels! (unlike me) and danced and talked and laughed like a hyena, I actually felt I had cracked a rib at one point I was laughing so much!

Cher TOTALLY agreed that G shouldnt tell my ex that he had talked to me, or what I had said and she said she would definetly talk to him and tell him not to, but that he is very sensitive and wouldnt say anything innapropriate. Luckily, BMF turned up in the morning and so I told him, that I didnt mean it when I said, could he talk to ex for me. That I didnt think that was a good idea to tell him we had talked.. and he agreed, he said I agree, its better coming from you, but also that he wont tell him, in case that makes him stop talking to him about it! He did say again though, just grow some b*lls and phone him... and then said, HE needs to grow some b*lls too!

MrsM - No, I know my ex well and if he thought there was an OM around me, he would definetly not speak up, he would back off and think, Al is ok, happy, she doesnt want me back... it would have the inverse effect on him, I always knew that, which is why I never considered the 'make him jealous' angle - my ex is 100% NOT a jealous guy, he used to say so himself. I think the 'loyalty' card would work better.

K, Julia - Yes, no tears, no R talks, no guilt..what more can I do other than be confident, flirt and be funny? BUT we need to be in the same room togetehr to do this!! I dont know if Cher will invite me Thursday (and no, its a pub, so I coldnt just turn up there alone, would look sad!) as she goes with another group of girls usually and so I'm not sure if I will get an invite yet.

I think for now.. I wont phone, but I will email him tommorow (eclipse!) and be my usual witty, friendly self.