I'm thinking of you...While it must be hellish to have to go through the viewings and such, from your own words I've seen that you are looking forward to starting the next chapter in your life. I'd say that once you are through this rough patch, you will be able to find a place to live that is your place, your choice, and free of memories happy and unhappy. I'm in no way implying that you can't still work things out with your H, only that you will be starting from a real position of strength.
I have to tell you again how much I admire your willingness to stick with it. As much as I love my H and am really glad I stuck through what was hopefully the worst and most painful part of the process, I am not sure I would have done it had I been younger. I think you are amazing, and have such resilience, honestly.
In terms of your interactions with your H, yes I'd say he believes he has moved on, but his conversations with you are getting more and more comfortable. My impression is that if you do want to work things out still, the best way would be to build on this new comfort and let him see what he is missing out on--a confident, vibrant, and honorable woman. I know nothing about OW, but I do know it's likely she'll lose her shine--who can really have long-term respect for a woman who is willing to move in with a married man?
As for not being able to talk to people in RL, I understand where you are coming from. I never wanted people to cloud my judgment, and introduce negativity when it was hard enough to force myself to feel positive.
Hope you're having a nice Sunday. It's actually snowing in Dublin, something that I understand hasn't really happened for 20+ years here...maybe I won't be able to make it to work tomorrow :).
ITH
Me:34 H:36 M:5 years T: 8 years Bomb: 07/17/08 I want to be separated for 6 months--I don't know what I want the outcome to be S 07/28/08-11/08/08 Living together ~7 months D Possibly busted?!?!!!
