Stinky bait!! lol. Reminds me of Grumpy Old Men when Gus puts that Stanky Ole Fish in Max's car.
I know it's hard and agree that it is scary that it could backfire. But it won't. I used to be scared of it, too, but she spent how many years with you? I wouldn't worry. You have kids together. She has to be around. She may try to accuse you of being out screwing other women, in which case, only makes her look MORE GUILTY. I just don't think she misses you and the marriage yet. Is she really the type of woman to just automatically assume you're out with other girls? If so,...and you put up with that for 19 years??? (can't remember how many years you said.)
You did good, tonight, kiddo. Keep it up. I know it's hard. We are waiting for them to come to their senses, and every phone calls means they could have! Except that they haven't. I REALLY DO TRULY BELIEVE that if our spouses change their minds, they will come to us and tell us. Because I did. I went to my H and told him I realized what huge loser I had been, that I was stupid, I made a mistake, I wanted things to work between us, I loved him, I was sorry, I swore it would NEVER happen again. So I know he knows exactly where I stand. And if he wants it back, all he has to do is shove OW out the door, go to MC with me, and start working to piece things back together.
In other news....do you remember that picture of the midair refueling?? You know there are only about, what, 5000 pictures of those. They are amazing too. I go to icanhascheezburger.com sometimes and the title of that pic was "How baby planes are made." Thought it was cute.
Have a good night's sleep. You know, maybe you want to go to the doc. Geez, I hate to recommend that, but I know you are having a hard enough time readjusting to life stateside and not being in a combat zone anymore. With everything else on top of it, an IC might not be a bad idea. Just a thought. You gotta take care of you first and then the kids.
Melissa
"Standing knee deep in a river and dying of thirst."
