I don't post here much anymore - joined the other refugee website when most of our generation DBers jumped ship (or were made to walk the plank). Several of us also connect via FB.
I'm in an interesting place currently. Its really difficult in that I'm breaking off my engagement with C - just had to admit to myself that she wasn't changing for the negative in front of me - instead, I was seeing her true colors. I have to admit that a good part of my old stuff kicked in, wanting to make it work, pouring in far more than my share in effort, then I realized that I was shaping my efforts with wishes, such as "until it changes" or "until she comes around" again, finally realizing that these were the traps that led to me ignoring the red flags with my Ex. Painful. But necessary. I really feel bad for my son. Don't know how I'm going to deal with that yet...
Truthfully, the other areas in my life are great. Work is excellent - far less stress and politics than before, I'm nearly back to my D diet level of fitness, but via lifting, running and better diet. I plan to run a 15k coming up in late March. Coaching another group of 3rd graders in basketball - S9 scored 10 pts in a game today.
Anyway, as I said - a mixture. Look me up on FB if you can.
