Am very anxious about seeing H. I avoided him altogether yesterday but have to spend the day together today. Will need to keep things light-hearted, keep a smile on my face and make small talk, acting 'as if'. It's hard because I know we will have a serious R talk with C soon. Yesterday he was very aloof and acted very very distant. I have no idea why, it could be 1000 different reasons but I told myself not to make any assumptions. It might not even have anything to do with me personally. Who knows. But I am going to have a nice day, a happy day. I am writing to convince myself, can't you tell? But I am determined to have a nice day and not waste another moment wallowing in self-pity. I am telling myself, 'I can do it!'
Me:39 H:40 S:9 D:7 First Bomb ONS:June 07 Second Bomb OW: March 08 Separated: March 08 M:15 yrs T:18 yrs H deep into A with OW Achieved ACCEPTANCE May 30, 09
