Choc martinis is my way of treating myself recently. I got the recipe on line and it serves my chocolate craving at the same time.
Pearl - do what you need to do. Be comfortable, if you don't have a reason for the meeting why see him? See him on your grounds not his. He doesn't know what he is doing - you are figuring it out - my bet is on you to know what to do better than he.
JD - The martinis aren't wicked if you are careful in counting. They can be seductive, but I tend to have a special radar when drinking that keeps things under control. Sorry to hear you are having a rough time - in the right place though. I think we are all having a tough week. Just know it gets better and easier.
Silva, great point brought up... NC allows healing so that we can have contact without all the anger,and hurt that has been part of our recent pattern of alienation. I just wish it lasted longer than the first contact. Guess I am still soothing wounds.
I have kept my cell phone off since last night - he can call the house phone but hasn't in months - i guess he recognizes that if the cell if off i don't want contact. Having time now to reflect on what i want to see happen for myself and M.
