H4U and Kevin, Thanks. I haven't been able to handle it in the past. That's why I had to finally detach. Even just being "friends" is hard, but parts of it are easier, too. When I am in no-talk mode, the days drag forever, even though I am finding something else to do. In a way, it's one less thing to think about except I am thinking about it anyway. Not a true detachment, I know, thank you very much.
But when we do talk, life seems almost normal, I have hope, and I am happier and so is he.
I wish he would keep seeing the C, but I don't think he will. Don't know.
I did realize one thing though, j. This is more about OW than you prolly wanted to know. She was supposed to go tdy the end of October. So she takes her kids to Hawaii, marries the one kid's dad, and leaves them there with her new H. Then she came back, whined to the USAF about peeing herself and got out of her tdy. Did not go get her kids. Is still leaving her kids with new H. New H is complaining because she's not sending any money home. Well, loser, that's cause she's spending it all on furniture and expensive toys for her kids. So she's then also not paying my H rent or anything else but he says she "helps out". Yeah, by cooking, or something. I'm like whatever and I let it go. But then my H's mom tells me that H is helping OW pay for something at WalMart when inlaws were down the weekend before Christmas. So he is shelling out money for her to live with him. Don't ya'll laugh at me!!! So I'm sure he is having a few issues with her, prolly over money if he is bailing her out every time they are at WalMart. In the meantime, I am making half, easily of what he makes and not getting help from anyone, and still managing to keep me and D4 afloat. So maybe that is one positive aspect about me, that I don't beg him for money or buy JUNK at WalMart and then expect him to pay for it.
Thanks for being there. I do greatly appreciate it.
Melissa
"Standing knee deep in a river and dying of thirst."
