A year later, facing myself... #54

[addie]

I guess naej is right. I could overcome alot if I felt his love. I know FG and fb2 will disagree and fb2 will tell me to show him love but I feel I have the "right" to be given some attention before I can get emotional with him. Because I dont feel loving with him. Not at all.

Kalni,
I don't know what advice to give you right now because we find ourselves with similar feelings towards our H's. As for the quote above, I do know that if my H weren't trying to win me back right now, making an effort in many ways, actively showing me love, then I would have given up on our R by now. Since your H was the one who wanted to work on the M and you had reached a point where you were ready to move on, he is the one that has to actively show you love. He has to win back your love, at the very least show you that he is making a consistent effort. I don't think your feelings toward him will change otherwise. That's only my opinion, someone who finds herself in a similar sitch as you.
I do like some of the MC suggestions. If only H would start doing more work to show you he loves you.