Thanks so much for your positive support. It helps so much to read notes like yours, NW, RTL, V and SC, and to see that some of the changes I'm feeling in myself are coming through in my words. You have all helped me so very much throughout these months that I've been on this board - and I know that many of you first met me when I was thrown down and going through the pain of my weakest moments.
Finding myself to be a single father to two boys is just never where I expected to be in my life - but it is my reality - and so I will face it openly and with the knowledge that I can only be there for my sons to the best of my ability if I am always honest with myself. Sometimes that honesty has me look at some troubling aspects to myself - and sometimes that honesty has me discovering things about my life that I had never known before...but that honesty keeps me on a path toward a more fulfilling and fulfilled life.
I'll definitely check out that book, SC. I know that a lot of what I've been through has also been influenced by my past and the ways in which love has (dis)functioned in my family of origin - I want to teach my sons about how to love in a healthy, giving way.