I got your post on my thread, so decided to come over here and check yours out. I see a lot of similarities in your sitch and mine!!
I too am working on getting my S17 into drug/alcohol testing and possibly treatment.
Your H and mine seem to be much alike too. I envy you the fact that your H is at least willing to go to MC and actually talk about the R. Mine refuses even after 7 months of seperation, and says he's "really happy" to have the "weight lifted off his shoulders". ("weight" = wife & family).
Just when I think I am doing pretty well and am going to make it through all this, something else happens and I have a backslide or meltdown. Patience is my biggest challenge!! That, and the door between my brain and my mouth has always been stuck in the "open" position!!
Take care!.......and if you're in the alt (FB) look me up under "SChrldr".
TJ
Me45,H49 D24,S18 M26,T28 Bomb 3/19/08 Sep 6/23/08 EA/PA with Secretary 2007-8 3/2009 H moved in w/OW2 7/2009 Let him go w/Love. 8/2009 Legally Sep'd