well, I just had a conviction today. I was picking up s4 from the drop off daycare, and I just had an overwhelming feeling that I'm not doing the right thing. I had taken on another job, working on commission only, and it basically had me scheduling sporatic meetings thru the week, and so I was running s4 here and there to work them in. I feel bad, because they are such nice people, but it was the most recent thing I added in my life, and it is the one that I wasn't getting paid on. So, I am relieved.

I also missed a thing for s10 this morning he told me about the other day, but I didn't schedule it in, so I forgot and he was disappointed. He had a 4 line speech to give. I told him I really wanted to go and just totally forgot and I was sorry. He was okay and forgave me.

bad mother I am being! at least I know that I need to devote more time to them, now I need to act on it.

plus, my h is coming home tonight...or he was suppose to... \:\( now he's coming back in the morning. which is okay. this is the wrong time of month for him to come back, sooooo TMI!

Me 33 H 34 S9 S3
M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs)
EA/PA 1/2006
DB 5/2006
H wants D 6/2006
H wants ME 8/2006
H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006
H erased OW off phone! 2/2007

"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."