Talked to DB coach today about the latest development - W contacting L and Mediator. I asked about how to focus on the D, myself (for kids and my financial health reasons), and still keep the hope alive for a miracle. Even though I've written a lot about "accepting" my W's decision of the D, I see now, that I am still resisting at some level. She advised me to not resist - as my W could view my resistance as an old pattern of controlling her.
She also advised to still show love, but more as a friend - like what we might become. Take all pressure off and don't ask for anything like one-on-one time or ML (Sandi, you were right on). And to keep working on me, me and me.
The road is long, but I know I can make it to the end - in one piece, and even as a better man and dad.
