Hi Pearlharbor, glad to hear that my experience is helping you. Yes, it just boils me that H is thinking that he can try things out with OW and then if it doesn't work out then back to his W. Pisses me off. I just wish sometimes that I didn't love him so I wouldn't want to take him back but the truth is that I do love him and I would take him back with conditions this time though. So I was actually loving the idea of "OM" until I started to realize how it made me look and I didn't like that outfit at all. I just hated the fact that H was telling people that I have someone just to justify his poor behavior. And then I felt like our whole relationship had no morals since "both of us" was cheating. So it feels so much better to be truthful to who I am. And by the way thanks for understanding why I made up "OM". And believe me, I was gooooood at it. \:\) I had OM's details down pack. I'm sure H probably still believes me that there was another man but whatever. I think "OM" was helping him to relieve his guilt so he probably liked the idea of me seeing someone else. Acutally, he even said jokingly that he was happy that I had a friend. But now I think he was serious... it helped his case.

Running and Rob, so true and I'm going to try to keep my spirits up. Funny thing is that even before "OM" H thought I was seeing someone else whenever I acted happy. And he gets down and out. You should see him, he has a sensitive stomach so whenever he's around me and the guilt settles in or he gets uncomfortable, his stomach starts to act up and he stands there rubbing his belly. Too funny.