Thanks Fitchik and Puppy for the pick me up. She started another r talk this morning. Think she needs to get it out of her system. Told me she still loves me and we'll see what happens. She said we'll just do a seperation for now. Nothing I can do about it I guess. Told me she became apethetic about taking care of anything since I've been gone. The kids have had to fend for themselves with dinner. My 19 yr old SS has been picking my daughter up from school everyday. She said she doesn't want a man in her life right now--she just wants to sleep, eat, and work that's it-even told me she's probably gonna get a part time job. She only started working about about 2 1/2 weeks ago but looks fantastic.
She said she would have sex(had some this morning) with me still as she knew I had needs but just didn't want to live with me--if I was single that would have been great. The house is totally upside down--crap piled up everywhere. She told me she's only cooked about 10 times in the 7-8 months I've been gone. She told me she doesn't talk to her parents, my parents, doesn't pray or care too, doesn't want to do anything except live and have a good time. Told me she doesn't deserve me and I deserve someone who would love me and take care of me--said she's been a sh*tty wife and its nothing I've done--it's just something she has to do. I asked her what her friends have said--they all said just make sure its really what you want to do.
I dont have the books yet but have been doing 180s for a while now. While in Iraq, I lost about 25 pounds and she noticed and said I was skinny again. She had my car detailed the day for I got home and asked what I thought about it. I told her I really didn't care about the car right now--big change for me--told her it's just a car--shocked her. I didn't act upset about the house at all--that surprised her too. Not sure if the last 2 180s were on purpose as I am pretty jet-lagged and still in a lot of shock.
Well, I guess I'll try to choke something down and take a nap. This house is gonna take about a month to pick up and clean up. Thanks again for the support! John
M-41 ex-W-40 Together--17 years SS-20 D-14 Bomb--2 Feb 09 WAW--6 Feb 09 Officially divorced on 2 Jun 2010!!! ex-W has a boyfriend 8 Jun 2010!!! Off we go into the wild blue yonder!!!!