You are so beautiful. I'm always amazed at the folds in my flesh when I go by the BIG mirror to shower, but I stop and look saying.. "Yep.. that's me.. uh huh".
You are what you want to be. I'm a hefty mama now, hate my body. But one night for a dance I got all dressed up, looked great and walked around with the mindset that I was the most alluring person there and let myself smile. I was still overweight, I still hated my body but I chose to walk the walk and experiment. I'm only as unappealing as I make myself.
I had lots of dances that evening, I had a great time, someone asked me out, someone propositioned me. I didn't go for the date or the proposition because I found I knew what I wanted. I didn't know going in but I did when it happened.
About the "lost" question..
Stop..
Just stop.
Breathe.
Exhale.
Do it again, bigger this time.
Exhale.. longer..
Keep doing that over and over.
Relax.
It's not that big a deal. It's not brain surgery.
It's a choice a day.. one choice a day.
Who do you want to be today? How do you want this day to be?
It's all yours, my dear friend. There are no rights or wrongs.
