Hi Veronica, I went to my men's group last night and talked about that discovery about my cycle of putting myself into relationship with abusive people - two of the men there are T's and one of them was very impressed that to hear that insight. He encouraged me to journal about it to see other relationships in which I have set myself in front of abusive people - and repeated the cycle.
I will keep moving forward with my eyes wide open. Things are still kind of stressful at times in terms of work and having to move at the end of this month, but I'm doing my best to remember that I do still have some control over what I am doing with my life.
I'm glad that you can hear strength and determination in my voice...sometimes I find myself having to step up and remember my own strengths - and hearing that helps.