I have faith believe me. It is hard not to check her temperature after 31 years. My only other alternative is to walk, and I don't mean the one I'm on.
I am detaqching, i know that by how I feel around her and how I don't need to see her, hear from her or whatever. But every now and then I like to touch base with her, lightly, that's all. I can not shut off my feelings the way she did, which is why I am here. If I had no faith in this or Him, I would bolt and save my self a ton af aggravation, frustration and pain.
When I get to a point where I just don't feel like I care about her, I feel the need to contact her. Sorry I get this way. But 31 years will do it to you. If she were dead, I would be at her grave, no less detached.
