Thanks. I know the path, I just don't really want to go down it.
He came over last night to bring me some meds. I've had a crick in my neck for days now and it is killing me. We talked calmly for about an hour. He wants us to stay with this "friend" thing. He said he wants a divorce but he doesn't want to RUSH into a divorce. ??? I told him that I would like for him to at least make his intentions clear, which he did to an extent in that statement. I told him that I didn't think it was too much to expect for him to know if he thought this M was worth saving or not. It's a simple contemplation. It doesn't mean that we move back in together right away. It just means that we are working towards each other, that we keep talking the way we have been, and we try to build good times together. He asked me a question about the A, but then apologized for asking, and I told him not to apologize, that he has the right to ask questions, and that I feel like if I want this to work, I need to answer them. I want to answer them. I am sure he realizes he may not like the answer. But I will answer them honestly. And I told him that he deserves answers to his questions, regardless of how it makes me feel. His need to know outweighs my pride. He was nice the whole time and didn't say anything mean or hurtful. It was a conversation like the last few emails. I remembered to try to get too emotional. I guess his family is calling him and telling him what he needs to do (move OW out and reconcile) and honestly they are hurting more than they are helping. He was upset about that, prolly cause he knows they are right, but he HATES being told what to do.
I know I should quit talking about A, J, but he has answers and I feel obligated to answer them.
Between us, we are better with what is going on, talking. Do you still think leave his butt in the dust until he gets rid of OW? It's going to be at least July. And he's sitting on the divorce, too, so basically, he is in control of everything right now. I am galing, all that stuff, basketball game again tonight, but I dunno.
The confusion sucks.
Melissa
"Standing knee deep in a river and dying of thirst."
