Yeah.. I thought that too.. it wasnt a a firm invitation, just a come along, but then as he was also coming. I wish I had gone along, seen for myself and confronted it finally. Maybe I should have.

I woke up upset today, like Kalni, really upset. Havent felt this bad in a long while. Cher emailed to say there was no news, she didnt chat to him much, as she was with her friends.

I'm back to thinking, ok, you're making a go of it with someone else, despite the comments about doubts. I feel resigned again, back to feeling that I just want to see ypu and have the conversation we never had, say goodbye to our R, see if there is any chance of a friendship at some point.