Trying to let go........with love!

[Silent Chrleader]

Thanks, BM.....

I'm just spending tonight watching TV with my S. I have knots in my stomach. Did I ever tell you that I have a long history of panic disorder? I am on AD meds, but even with that, I am getting some breakthrough anxiety. But, I have a med for that too, which I rarely take because it's addictive, but I took one tonight.

I am feeling a lot of anger toward H. My mom called crying because she is so "concerned for me". She tells me that I don't need this stuff with S17 now......yea like what's my alternative? Just kick my S to the curb, like H has suggested I should?

I just wish that everyone in RL whould stop telling me "H is done, you need accept it!" I know I need to concentrate on me and my S! I do NOT need the "devils advocate" theory thrown in face all the time!! I know they mean well, but why can't they just be supportive and hug me and tell me I'll be OK and they are there if I need them, and then let me find my way and believe in me!

Geez, enough already!

I really appreciate all of you, my DB friends! Your understanding and unconditional support (as well your brutal honesty when necessary ) is a godsend to me.

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