I think you are right, but remember that we are family here and we will listen whenever you want to talk. If we can think of something to say to help give you hope, then we will. There are so many that have been through what you are facing. I have not been there but I think it is very important for you not to give up on living. Even though you may never have dreamed this would have happened, you still can have a good life if you chose to. But, you have to want it enough to go after it and not allow the pain of all this to eat you up alive and ruin any chance at having happiness that you deserve. Give yourself time to heal, but don't just wallow in it and if you get too depressed and get where you can't eat or sleep....don't be stubborn about going to the doctor to get help. Some people seem to think that is terrible, but as one doctor told me.....everyone needs a little help now and then. It is no disgrace. You have to stay healthy and you can't do that if you cannot sleep or if you get where you can't eat. So, do watch that. In fact, if you were to just make it part of your "healing process" to exercise and eat a healty diet plan and if you can't sleep, then try some over the counter sleep aids and if that doesn't work....go to the doctor. Some depression is normal b/c the end of a M is like a death, but if the depression lingers too long or gets too bad, please don't wait around too long before you do something about seeing a doctor. I think I have repeated myself a dozen times! Maybe I need to see one too!
Talk to you later, Sandi
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!