You know the worst part is that today has been extremely eye opening as to how much damage I sustained during this last 3 years. I know that people recover and their hearts heal and they are able to commit again. I just wonder how and when you actually know. Today, I do not feel like I will ever be able to do that. I know that I only feel this way because of what has occurred, but damn it thats just how it seems right now...
Ian,
I know exactly how you feel. When my exW blazed off, I was so distraught... The woman I thought I LOVED with all of me for 16 years... The woman I trusted with all of me... ACTUALLY did this.... I came to eventuality grasp the woman I loved and the woman my exW was were two VERY different people...
My heart was not broken, it was completely shattered. I prayed and worked hard on getting back to being myself... I was never myself with my exW..... I was someone else... Satan had me twisted up in knots with worry and fear... That is another story...
From my perspective, I was going to only be able to heal so far on my own. I personally believe I needed a solid, loving and REAL relationship to completely heal. I found that and so much more in my new W. She is such a blessing.
Praying for you and your family.....
RMG
"The bad things in life open your eyes to the good things you weren't paying attention to before." from "Good Will Hunting"
