I was lost for about 2.5 years and it took about 9 months total before I pulled my head all the way out of my ass.
During those 9 months or so, I was all over the map at first and then I withdrew into myself for a while which was when I eventually considered that everything might not have been all my husband's fault. Then I got hurled out of the MLC tunnel on my ass.
The rest is history. I've been fighting for my marriage, and at times for myself, ever since. 3 years. And it has just been in the last few months things have started to slowly turn. So as you can see, this won't be a cakewalk. Not for you and DEFINITELY not for her.