How much we laughed Laying in his arms at night and talking about everthing and nothing. Looking at him and we would both just smile His voice, smile, smell, eyes His wonderful cooking and watching how much he loved doing it All of us playing with our dog Whenever the fire pager would go off we would both jump and be ready with the camera to run where ever it was if it was good. Hearing him tell me he loves me His letters and cards Making love to him His large heart
These are all lovely things but only a few describe your H. I wonder if you are missing the whole concept of being in a partnership. i know you miss your H but I think in time you may find that there are other traits that you dislike more . Not being mean or horrible - you may learn better things about H. I just wonder if that is what I am missing. i do get insanely jealous when i think of OW etc but I do have moments of clarity where i think hmmmmm could it be tat there is better possibilites for me out there, and they dont have to include a spouse . Just a thought
