When I cook, and if it is the holidays, it is a family gathering. I do it for all, not single out for whom I am cooking.

No, I am not defensive when someone says something but I know him better than anyone and I know that if I were to talk, it would not be talk, it would be yelling because I cannot talk calmly about this.

Right now, I cannot fix him with words, he is not fixable, at least not by me, and it will take a lot more to fix him for which I do not have control over. Let his conscience be his guide. My son will not put up with BS but H never discusses ow or his life over there with S18.

Thru all of the anger, sometimes you just have to calm down and ask what will it accomplish to do or say certain things. For my h--nothing.

He will get his punishment one day and it will not be from me.

The Bomb: 08/05
H moves out: 06/2006
H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07
H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08
H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09
Divorced 08-12
Kids: 22, 20, 19