Spoke to W today basically trying to find out where she stands. She has no idea, she can't tell me anything, I even asked if she looked into a crystal ball and saw myself, her and the boys being happy in the future would that be the route she chose to go. She still can't answer that, the only thing she answered was she wanted to be happy.
I feel more confused now then I did last night. Part of me wants to just forget about this whole ordeal until she truly has a change of heart and comes back and says she wants to work on a reconcile and the other part wants me to drop everything again and put myself in a position of hurt all over again.
She stated she was very happy that we finally sat down and talked last night as she felt we both needed that as we have really not communicated in 5 months. She told me that the weekends I have the kids that all she does is sit around crying. She doesn't know why she wanted me to watch Fireproof, she has no idea, she says it could be because that was the way we could finally sit down after we watched it and talk about things or it could mean more or it could mean nothing, she just has no idea at this time.
I am going to continue to pray about this, I had my mind made up today before talking to W that I was going to end relationship with OW but now I am starting to think that is not a good idea.
