Moving on for good.

[nw626]

Hi V and Carlos
Thanks for your supports. They were much needed.

Time to start a new thread....
It is time for me to move on, not just moving forward. I really need to move on for good to save myself.

Minor recap:
W is still living in AL and she is still in love with the OM. He is her soulmate but he is in CA with 2 kids. I am not sure how that's will work out, but it is not my business.
My S is staying with me now. I am so happy about it. I strongly believe I can provide him a more stable environment to grow up. W actually agrees with me. W and I are friendly to each other and there are no ill feelings.

She actually called me today and wanted to talk. We had a really good talk, a much needed closure talk. We both needed. I told her I forgave her long time ago. I told her the A was the byproduct of our failed M which we both had our faults in. I told her we are responsible for our own happiness. I am working toward that and I wish her can do the same. I even told her that I will be the sideline cheerleader for her. If she ever needs my help, I will do my best to assist.

So now what....??
We agree we should get the big D. I guess I am now a WAS. There is no other person in my case. Honestly I am not ready for it yet. I will just take things slow and see where fate takes me. After today talk, I felt like I am finally unstuck, truly let her go. And I can finally start living my life again. I have lost the urge to spend any more energy on her. I felt really peaceful and calm now.

What will happen next? I have no clue but I know for sure I will live my life to the fullest and be the best father for my S. That's something I am looking forward to.

I was hoping this chapter could end with happier ending, but I can't complain.
All the memories that we had together will be always with me. They are my souvenir that I would cherish. I can say I did the best of my ability and have no regrets. I have learned and grown a lot through this. Don't get me wrong, I am still learning daily but I know now I am a better person for whoever next will be.

No time to waste, got to stay busy....!!!

NW626