I'm so glad you're making progress with thinking about careers and where to go. I know that wherever you end up you're going to be awesome!
Originally Posted By: T
have also been thinking about B a LOT, and not sleeping well.
Not sleeping well because of thinking about B?
Originally Posted By: T
Not necessarily any major new thoughts... I really, really, really wish I could get some feedback from him about my career plans, and what happened at the disastrous cello lesson.
I agree with the others- just be open and normal with him, as you would with a friend.
Originally Posted By: T
But I am also afraid to expose him to the extent of the chaos inside my mind, and my current insecurity about my abilities!!!
Why? Are you worried he might not respect you if you did so? IMHO it's entirely reasonable to be confused about what career route to take after graduating. You want to make a good decision, and that's a good thing, not anything to be worried about exposing B to! As to the abilities- I'm pretty sure you're brilliant. Believe in yourself and brilliance will follow
Originally Posted By: T
The other address will still work but I will be using this as my primary address. Thanks!" (WHY does he want me to know about his website? I haven't even looked at it yet.)
Are you really wondering WHY he wants you to know about the website, or am I misreading because of the way text comes over on the page? I'm just thinking here that B is being friendly and including you in what he's doing. It probably doesn't *mean* anything more than that as a hidden message in a group e-mail, if that makes sense? I don't think that's a bad thing. It's just a thing......
Originally Posted By: T
it seems clear that I need to focus on making myself happy, yet at the moment that seems somewhat mysterious ?
Hmmmm....... T, Lovely, would you not say that you're happy? What would happiness look like to you? How will you know when you ARE happy if you're not? Maybe we could write some happy goals (much more fun than any other type of goal.... )
I also wondered, are you still DBing? Is the plan still to reconcile with B? I'm not asking with an expectation of an answer one way or another. I was just wondering, and trying to think about how we can be solution based in getting there (which I think all the posts and advice are, BTW!)
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