T2- I know you feel like your life is imploding right now. We all have been/are there at one point or another in that. When I say this, it doesn't mean that I'm trivializing your feelings- far from it. What it DOES mean is that everybody goes through this. The fear is normal. The lack of appetite is normal. The lack of sleep is normal. The crazy feelings- it's all NORMAL.
And yes, it feels like crap.
But you're going to be okay.
Let yourself FEEL everything now. Cry. Scream into a pillow. Go to the local gym and beat the everlovin' stuffings out of a punching bag. (Not to be confused with the local JIM- I am not a punching bag. )
I'm not going to get all long-winded on you (thanks for the subtle 200 lb. sledgehammer blow on the top of the head AmyC ) by quoting a TON of scientific studies that prove that releasing pent up emotions allows the body to flush out all the backed up chemicals that are stored in your system from repressed emotions. But let it all OUT, and I guarantee you will be MUCH better off than you feel you are now.
This is not a road race- take all the time in the world. I actually took sick days ("mental health days"- a lot of them) off of work to stay home and work on me.
Maybe I should cancel out on my activity this evening, and you and I can meet up and talk, yes?
PATIENCE AND FORTITUDE CONQUER ALL THINGS. -Ralph Waldo Emerson
DBing and MLC take their toll....Please provide exact CHANGE. -Jimbo