wow, this is the one that is the backslide. I'm really sorry. you've had something built up in you, and you let it out. NOW, let it be gone for good. Do NOT take this back. Give it to God and let him do the rest.
In regards to saving your M. the world tells us that a M is not worthy to be saved. But GOD created marriage, and HE tells us that it is. You guys were created as one for a reason, and the enemy is trying to destroy it.
I do not want you to hold on to hopes that will only disappoint you and bring you down. I want you to hold onto the hope that God will carry you thru this no matter what happens. You cannot change him, and you cannot make him come back. You can only change you. You need to start loving yourself, and loving your life again, otherwise your H will never come back.
I'm sorry that the C was not supporting you. That is why I am against going to C, and even MC, when in the middle of a sitch. Unless you have someone like Michelle of course.
Now, if you believe that your emotions can handle this weekend, then I say go and act as if as best as you can. If you do not have confidence that you can do that, then do not go. you need to go dark IMHO. dark enough to just be away for awhile unless it's extremely urgent.
you need to work on you right now. Your H is just reacting the best way that he knows how. do not take anything he does personally. he has created a huge wall of sin, and that has altered his being and he cannot give you what you need. He WILL say things that will hurt, but that is not your H saying those things.
(((SC)))
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
