Just found out wife filed

[RobD70]

Nothing new and I don't expect anything for a while. My impression is the W is still trying with the OM currently and I expect it to be a few months before we know how that goes. Considering there's more issues with their R than what our R had I don't expect much success. I could be wrong of course.

Yesterday I was not in a good place but today I'm more apathetic. I have a "f' her" attitude right now which feels nice. I'm slowly getting my emotions under control and accepting the situation as it is. The plan is the same, agree with anything she says and if she says the D will be final on day 62 I'll be "That's cool, the sooner the better". I'm also about to dump a metric f'ton of bills in her lap next month which should be fun.

I watched a recording of "House" last night and he said sometime I think applies here. It was something like "I have to lose in order the win the war". That's us sometimes, in order to save our R, we have to give up trying to save it. I did my 180s and the W was impressed but now there's nothing left for me to do but leave her alone to get her head straight. I'm living my life and if one day she wants to come back I'll decide then if that will be an option. There's a good chance I won't take her back...I wouldn't today.