Trying to let go........with love!

[Silent Chrleader]

Hey, [[[[[sandycay]]]]].

Thank you for your support last night. Your view on things is very much appreciated. My post here last night was an effort to get all the turmoil I was feeling out of my head.

I know in my head that I'm not a failure and even if I were, that's not constructive thinking. But, that is how I felt.

And, by the way, your advice to let H handle part of this process with S was good, but I had already left the message with H on his voice mail before I talked to you. So, I want you to know I didn't deliberately blow off your good advice!

I am lucky that my boss gave me today to get things worked out with S. I didn't sleep well last night and I am exhausted. But, I have a lot of phone calls to make.

You thought his e-mail sounded nice? Yes, H wants to be "amicable"......but if he really cared, I think he would not have called me childish for trying to take his hand in session yesterday. I don't think he hates me or anything, but it's becoming clearer to me that he is gradually loosing any care for me that he had.