I am not with h when he comes over. He goes outside and I was so mad that there is no way I could have had a productive conversation with him. It would have turned into a shouting match with me doing the shouting and saying things I would have later regretted.

Now, I did attempt to leave him a voice mail late lasnight about things but call it God intervening my phone shut off before I was able to send the message.

When h is here, he is by himself. Who wants to be around or talk to someone who is in a terrible mood to begin with? Not me.

The kids are to the point where they could care less about him or what he does.

The kids were thrown into this from the very beginning because he told the kids that he was having an affair. I would not tell them but he did and then things went downhill from there. My kids have heard and seen much worse then they have it here at home as they have friends who have gone thru things. Nobody is immune to anything.


The Bomb: 08/05
H moves out: 06/2006
H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07
H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08
H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09
Divorced 08-12
Kids: 22, 20, 19