Snodderly, I guess I say he owes me because he ran out on his family. I am having a hard time looking at this as a sickness I guess. I have a friend that doesnt understand the MLC thing. She says she wouldnt give my x the time of day. They have never got along though, because my xh is so cocky.
Ok, with that said, I want to tell you about my night. It wasnt good and you are gonna hit me with a "big stick" instead of a 2x4. Anyway here goes. I had been speaking to my xh alot today concerning my heating issue. He paid someone to fix it for me and told me not to worry about it. I thanked him very much for this. Later on I was out in town and called him again to thank him and ask him if I could drop a paper off. He said yea. I told him I would leave it outside under the grill lid (so there would be no contact) and he said ok. When I got there he opened the door and acted like he wanted me to come in. I could tell he was kinda ifey about it, but I went in anyway. We had a nice talk and I kinda let things get started down "that" road again. We stopped and I left, he really didnt want to, so I left. I ended up back at his house later on AGAIN. We talked on the phone after the first time I left and he didnt directly ask me to come over but led me to believe that its really what he wanted. I could tell he was fighting the issue within himself. I went and things happened, BUT afterward he went OFF THE WALL. I sat down in a chair for just a sec and I guess he thought I was staying and he said. "It's time for you to go" (yes he is rude this way, its his turn, dont know how I stood it all these years...love I guess), I said ok I am leaving, that I didnt intend to stay and that's when he went off. he said, screaming, "I should never have done this, this should have never happened. I want you completely out of my life". I told him there was no reason to get upset and he just got louder. I told him I was sorry and he was probably right. He said you are gonna call me a thousand times now and I dont want to talk to you. I brought up everything I had done to make him mad lately and even got so excited he turned red and shook his fists together. It was like dr. jekyl and mr. hyde. I mean he went off the wall. He said really really hateful things to me and said he only let it happen because he was a man and couldnt resist. I on the other hand did not scream back, I just stood there with tears rolling down my cheeks and took it. I told him I didnt understand his rage and I was leaving and promised him I would not call him like he thought I would. He said I have got to get you completely out of my life. He also threw in my face paying for heat. I knew he would do that, so I offered his money back and he said no just leave. (he had told me the day before that even if our son didnt live with me, he would have fixed it anyway). Tonight he said he only fixed it because of our son. (see how he changes). I did tell him, he was mad at hisself and taking his anger out on me and he said YES I AM so you need to leave and I did just that. It may have been a mistake but I also told him I thought his problem was that he still had feelings for me and he gets upset because of it and takes it out on me. He said for me to go on believing that. (I cant help it, I think he still cares. I could be wrong) Guys, sometimes I think he really is trying to push me completely out of his life. He says this hisself. BUT then other times we can talk and he will say ok I will talk to you in a day or two. I know what everyone has told me but it is so hard to understand his mind and thinking. He changes like day and night.
Update on things he does, that he never use to do:
*works out EVERY day of the week. (Didnt really need to)
*Takes hydroxycut (but told me in the beginning he just wanted to gain muscle not lose weight-lied again)
*tanning bed (I laughed at this)
*brags about turning women down that want to take him to dinner
*wears VERY tight clothes. Even pants
*stopped biting his nails (he done this for 20 years)(the one girl he dated told him it looked bad, so he stopped)
*1500 calories a day (so he says)
****Says everyone tells him he is MLC, but they are WRONG**** Now I am convinced!!!!
