You asked what are the things that I miss about my H
How much we laughed Laying in his arms at night and talking about everthing and nothing. Looking at him and we would both just smile His voice, smile, smell, eyes His wonderful cooking and watching how much he loved doing it All of us playing with our dog Whenever the fire pager would go off we would both jump and be ready with the camera to run where ever it was if it was good. Hearing him tell me he loves me His letters and cards Making love to him His large heart
I could continue on and on. We really did have a wonderful relationship until I pressured for a child and he dug deeper into alcohol. I feel he really did want AA to work but when it didn't he lost all hope, then when the drinking got worse I confronted him on it and he just wanted to run as fast as he could.
I talked to step D's mom (ex-wife) tonight to see if we could get her this weekend. Apparently she is worried about getting put in the middle so she wants to do e-mails and phone call for awhile first. I told her that I certainly understood and was not mad or hurt. That we loved her and wanted her to be comfortable so we will communicate often and when she is ready we will start with day trips then do weekends. She said that she was really scared to tell me that cuz she didn't want me mad. Ex-wife did tell me that about 3 wks ago H and D10 went to a movie but that was it. He only calls every other weekk or so and they don't talk about anything really. That is so sad since he is only 15 mins away from her. It makes me so mad that he is doing this to the girls.
Anyway, I miss the H I married, not the alien that has taken over.
Love and prayers to you all
By the way, do I contact H and ask what he is planning to do about filing or do I just not contact and do my own?
H-41 (alcoholic) Me-38 D-13 SD-10 T-6yrs M-4.75yrs Bomb-10/4/08 Moved in w/OW 11-13-08
